It's funny, when you reach the point of weakness when an hour of normalcy exhausts you. Those days when you can no longer force yourself up and out and on your way. When you give into just laying down. Just for awhile... that lasts for longer.
When you know there is no real way to explain. No way to understand. Nothing to do but keep inching along. Even when you don't want to.
That is when you see you have judged yourself too harshly. You may think, Wow! How much you were capable of those days so long ago. How did you do it? And you may think you were just awesome and then miss that person and wonder if you'll see her again.
Knowing what good has come and what good will come, doesn't make the present any easier. The pain any less painful.
You sigh, you wait, you take a step. Sigh, wait, take a step. Sigh. Wait. Step. The longest walk of your life.