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It's interesting to look at your life, past to present, and think: "It has all led up to this...." And then wonder where it will lead to next.

Saturday, April 28, 2012

Holding On. Letting Go.

I have a tendency to want to do EVERYTHING! It doesn't seem to matter how many times I fall on my face and learn that I am not capable of even the smallest accomplishments without my God guiding and carrying me. I still get this idea that I can and should do everything. I constantly need reminders that I am not the answer to the world's problems. Narcissistic-selflessness can be a crippling disease. As God leads me forward step by step, I am thankful he blessed me with a husband who helps steer me back to truth when I start swimming too deep and welcoming the world to use me as a life boat.
I am so excited to be starting school again soon. Like I have said before, I don't know how it's all going to pan out, I just know this next step is right, so I am taking it. However, in doing so I am realizing there are things I will have to let go of and I will not be able to commit to all the things I'd like to right now. This has been hard for me to accept, but each time I come before God with this burden, I feel him speak freedom over me. I think I'm slowly getting it.


Vanessa Washburn said...

What is your class schedule like? Please know that I'd love to help in any way I can. Even if it's just watching the boys so you can have a date night, or get some studying done, or run some errands. I miss you friend and hope we get to hang out soon. I'm excited you are starting school and realize that may make it even harder to hang out, but one of these days we'll make it happen.

Faith said...

I miss you too Vanessa! My class schedule won't be too crazy this summer, just night classes and a morning a week to study. So I would love to get together!