I have a tendency to want to do EVERYTHING! It doesn't seem to matter how many times I fall on my face and learn that I am not capable of even the smallest accomplishments without my God guiding and carrying me. I still get this idea that I can and should do everything. I constantly need reminders that I am not the answer to the world's problems. Narcissistic-selflessness can be a crippling disease. As God leads me forward step by step, I am thankful he blessed me with a husband who helps steer me back to truth when I start swimming too deep and welcoming the world to use me as a life boat.
I am so excited to be starting school again soon. Like I have said before, I don't know how it's all going to pan out, I just know this next step is right, so I am taking it. However, in doing so I am realizing there are things I will have to let go of and I will not be able to commit to all the things I'd like to right now. This has been hard for me to accept, but each time I come before God with this burden, I feel him speak freedom over me. I think I'm slowly getting it.